I’m this close to quitting.

My job has changed drastically in the past few weeks, and just watching how my company is treating people through this transition makes me sick. Our company is struggling to survive yet we keep adding cities – but no employees to match. So the production team works harder and harder to make ends meet, while the profit levels climb. As fucked up as it is, no one seems to realize it. They keep pushing and pushing, and no matter what, they just don’t care. They don’t see how horribly the employees are treated. How overtime is considered standard – almost a job requirement – and now I have to justify my salary.

It’s fucking ridiculous.

So now, I’ve got to wait for my boss to call me so that I can justify my salary. And I’m going to try to do it. I’m going to put 100-percent effort into trying to sort things out and try really hard to keep my job.

But I don’t think that’s going to happen. I think instead, my salary is going to get cut, and I’m going to have no choice but to leave. I can’t afford daycare on that salary – what with healthcare and what not – so I have to work from home and take care of our future child myself. It’s the only thing that I can do, and I feel like they’ve pushed me into this situation.

There’s a few people who I think give a shit about me and my current situation right now, but I also don’t think that they can do anything about my situation. I think that the only option I’ve got right now is to leave. Try really hard to keep things status quo, but then when it doesn’t come through, leave.

I hate that things are this way. I loved what I did, and I’d love to be an editor again, but right now, with this company, it’s not going to happen. Instead, I’m going to finally act on my plan to go freelance full-time.

Scares the shit out of me, but I don’t know what other option I have.